April 24, 2001
notice that I'm tired a lot more recently, and spent some shower
time this morning thinking about why. Granted, I still have about
24 balls up in the air right now, and I'm sure the stress involved
is adding to my exhaustion. On the other hand, I think it may
also have to do with having a roommate. I had gotten used to
being alone in my house, and the ability to "shut down"
used to come much earlier. Once I left work or gaming nights,
I could just be quiet, stop talking, and do whatever it was that
I wanted to do. Now, I have to maintain a higher energy level,
continue discussions, keep a smile on my face. Now, I don't want
you to think this is bad... I certainly don't think so. But,
it is additional energy that I didn't have to generate/consume
before, and it is taking some getting used to. I guess it is
the same commitment that people make when they marry, although
they may not realize it. It is certainly interesting. I'm sure
that when we get a larger place, I won't have to keep the energy
flow up as much, merely because we'll have more space to spread
out in.
Of course, I have the advantage in this situation, too. I can go off to my bedroom and close the door and lounge on my bed. Suz is stuck out here in the living room, on a Futon, with practically none of her furniture and stuff. I don't know how she does it... and what toll it is taking on her. We both are trying hard to accommodate each others whims and needs, and sometimes it is funny :)
As Suz indicated, our house looking yesterday wasn't exactly what we were looking for, in terms of bedroom sizes, a concern that I've had for a while. The fact is, builders make these homes for married couples with kids, not 2 or 3 adults who are living together. What I'm really looking for is a second bedroom that is at least 12x12 or slightly larger (11x14?) which will make a much more comfortable space for a bedroom. We need large public space, but we need a minimum of happiness in our bedrooms, and the master bedroom/bath in that house yesterday was about 65% of the space in the upstairs, with the 2 extra bedrooms and a bath in the remaining space. Ah, well, we're searching again, and I am hoping that we can find something soon. We took 4 weeks to find the place from yesterday, but I feel we've already got a leg up on the new search, mainly because we know the areas we're looking in, and I've got a much better sense of direction in them, now. I'm learning all the back streets of San Diego County :)
Corey, my best to your Mother... and a speedy recovery. Breaking a hip isn't something that is fun, but it does sound like she's got the whole thing under control already :) I enjoy your miscellaneous entries, as you are one of the few people left out there who are updating regularly. Seems like in Mooville, only Steph is constantly writing, and while I enjoy her entries, I miss the other 8 people's entries. I know it is a lot of work to sit down and write something, but I honestly feel the effort is worthwhile, at least for me :) At least Metzener keeps me entertained semi-regularly!
Enough drivel for now... everyone have a wonderful day!